peace

this is how i've been feeling. i can honestly say i feel the best i've felt in a LONG time. and i'm so happy. i feel normal, which is such a new thing for me. i've spent the last three years having anxiety pretty much every day. not going out in fear of coming home to my dad dead, not wanting to leave the house because what if the world split in half. i now look at it and see how IRRATIONAL those thoughts were. living with OCD is horrifying. i still get irrational fears but i will NOT let that stop me from doing things. i will go on an escalator, something i WOULDN'T do for over a year. i go to malls, stores, on walks because i know every time i do it i become a little less scared. i'm happy. and i love it.